Don’t get off the train

Keep the course and the landscape will continue to change. A teaching of my teacher in regard to the practice of meditation, but I have also taken it to regard the nature of our life. We get caught up, myself included, but we forget that with the passing of time that it will fade, it will pass. Sure there are things you can’t change, the events of your life are uniquely yours, but taking those experiences and allowing them, or finding ways that they support the journey rather then hinder ~ that is the work.

Actually doing the work is another conversation completely. It’s uncomfortable, but the discomfort is temporary then it reveals a greater joy ~ delight in the process. Some would say, if you don’t figure it out this life, it’s certain to show up later. (I have mixed feelings of the who reincarnation ~ not so much that I am opposed to it, but I feel you are so much more than a past).

Next time the road gets rocky, just settle in, breathe, eat some yummy food and know that soon the view will shift.

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Yoga diversified

This is sometimes what I want to call my style of yoga. Even the way I practice off the mat because that takes more of the form of a seat these days than a bunch of down dogs. Yes I still practice asana since I teach asana, but I also think that meditation will rock your world (in a safe and good way) faster than any down dog or pigeon pose. Yet, the asana, the physical is the entry point. Those whose practice contains a lot of sweat and spacing out are doing more than the people who never try it and the physical brings a level of awareness and confidence in thinking positively about themselves. So as a student I know what I like, or what is of best service for myself, mainly cause I’ve tried it all out. Except I can’t keep up with the times. I saw a video of an old friend’s class that it appeared they did the ‘train’ during class…more power to her and everyone for waking up more of their creative flow. So I guess I haven’t tried out everything.

As a teacher, I feel that if I am going to teach yoga I can’t just know a script and ask everyone else to fit the mold. That I have to continue to diversify the way I offer a class so an advanced yoga still is challenged to expand and a newby can feel enough trust to explore ~ especially if they are in the same class. For about 8 years straight I was doing about 3 major trainings a year. It was almost habit to be running off learning more, but I was teaching in environments that weren’t just upper middle class (this is the non-diversified side of yoga in my public classes currently which makes me sad). I was in settings that required me to be able to work with a woman that is 250 pounds that was in the same class as a male athlete training for the boston marathon. This is just one example of the diverse nature of physicality that has entered the room. In order though to help facilitate a connection to caring for themselves, for cultivating self compassion, worth and serenity, my own skills have to be diversified.

There are so many styles of yoga ~ but that isn’t exactly what I am talking about ~ instead it’s being able to be draw from a variety of methods of connecting with individuals. Sure the context is yoga, but holding space so that each person can feel valued and be supported in their efforts, (and even practice meditation) means for me, my style of yoga has to expand beyond just one approach, method, or style. Yoga Full of Grace, a diversified approach to awakening the wellspring of your own heart.

Why are we so hard on ourselves?

I don’t have an answer. But for my own self, I am working on it as I have realized that my drive to make things happen is on one level a means for copping and avoiding what did happen a long time ago.  I am still the nice gal I’ve always been but I’m done pretending and pleasing. Being true to myself, regardless if you think it is a good idea or if I’m doing it the way you think I should. I took on the concept of being more ‘diva’ like at the beginning of the year. It’s made me uncomfortable and a little fiery, but no one else is going to do it, nor should they. I’m still being responsible just becoming more conscious.

Plain and simple

We love to move and yoga is a chance to move with all parts – body, mind and heart (spirit) – and the breath is the thread. We think we forget to breathe, but we just forget to pay attention to how we are breathing. I’ll even dare and say if you take 5 minutes out of your day to sit with your breath – you are on your way to being an advanced yogi.

Bananas

Do any of you think about how amazing life is while peeling a banana? Yes, these are thoughts that went through my mind as I peeled and froze bananas tonight. This happens to me a lot with food. I am ever curious to who decided to eat the banana? The garlic? The sweet potato? I then proceeded to think to myself of how many people don’t believe in the divine, god, the greater whole, and that made me sad.

There is such a correlation, pattern, basic flow that moves us in such a way we feel compelled to freeze bananas. (I also made rotisserie chicken salad and was sad that though free range and all natural chickens don’t get to fly like an eagle or even like a crow).  Yes, I think, a lot, but it brings me to a point of gratitude and I then continue to offer thanks to all the food that sits before me. I give thanks to the individual that thought the banana would be a good thing to eat. I give thanks to the idea that nature provides just what we need.

Getting Quiet

The frogs are in full effect and it’s amazing that they can be so synchronized that when one stops, they all get quiet together, and when one begins it’s in harmony with all the others, truly amazing. Today I had someone ask, since I tend to spend a good bit of time thinking on life how do I get quiet. This is a great question really!

The only time my mind is ‘quiet’ is when my body hurts. If, like today, there is a trigger with my neck, my brain becomes so dull and throbs with pain that it actually hurts to think. But everything is out of alignment and for me, this isn’t the idea. However, I can be in a place like meditation and everything resonates in such a way there is a harmonious wave of thoughts (or no thoughts) that flow freely. That is the continue to flow without me getting caught up in the details and they become so fluid that they make their own sound, hum, or on some level sound like the frogs out my window. The vibration of sound looses it’s distinct form of words and coherent thoughts, but reminds me of the life that still flows…that I continue to pulse with life. Some refer to it as resonating stillness, or that the dynamic nature of being comes into such alignment that it appears steady.

This is meditation of course. For me this dull feeling I have right now isn’t the idea, it’s just all my energy is going to restore the muscles that have been tweaked. I don’t want my mind to flatline, I hope the serenity comes from knowing the tune of consciousness that hums through me as me.

Just enough

As yoga teachers we are taught to notice patterns, tendencies, and for myself find ways to enhance rather than make someone feel small or insignificant. I am a firm believer in alignment, but I don’t believe there is just one way to get there. One thing I truly find frustrating is when a person preaches of how their way is better than anyone else’s. This is one thing about Anusara that felt out of alignment as I was getting certified ~ the way teachers projected themselves as the best. Yes I think some of them are awesome, but not the best. Today I recognized that alignment for me is a position where you don’t become obsessed but rather utilize it just enough. There isn’t just one pattern in everyone and for me you honor the individual first.

Come Alive

Conversations today include reflection, family dynamics, expansion and magnificence. Feeling part of something really aids in the ability to find contentment. Invited to be a part of something because you’ve always been your true self holds a larger benefit than pretending. Even pretending that you don’t need to be a part of something. I  think if you can learn how to come alive, what gets you going in the morning, motivates you to see beyond the surface layer of life ~ of your life ~ then being true to yourself is being true to the great self, god, absolute,or that which is none higher. Because your coming alive brings life to the divine.

Saturated

Here in Charleston we have had nearly 10 inches of rain during the month of June and the normal is closer to 5 inches. It’s pretty wet and our back yard is a bit swamp like. The frogs are in stereo and we can hear them inside. The other week with the super moon the rains hit during hight tide and our street was more like a river with lumber floating down to the tidal creek. The temperature now is 10 degrees cooler than usual and it really does not feel like a summer night. Wild as Mercury is retrograde in Cancer, the sun is in Cancer, as is Jupiter. Cancer is a water sign, mercury represents communication, Jupiter a bit of a teacher that helps expand our understanding/view. Saturn, the task master, is also in a water sign of Pieces. Really just makes me wonder if all this rain has anything to do with a larger planetary alignment. But then, as I watch the rain flow, somewhere out there someone or something is probably in a draught or even on fire. Perhaps it’s time to reflect on the emotional tides of our collective hearts communicating with more authenticity and compassion for all beings or maybe it’s just a rainy summer.

*astrology is just a hobby of mine, please consult a professional if in need or astrological advice.

One of those days

Where you are sitting by the sea with friends and family. Take a dip in the ocean and dry off with a cool breeze. Dinner as the sun sets with your spouse. Both of us commenting – this is where we live! But it didn’t happen by chance. We haven’t simply sat around & prayed it would work this way. Instead we have actively pursued this life and it hasn’t always been easy, but when a great day comes along you better believe I’m going to take the time to enjoy every minute.